D!CK

I have been working on a series of artwork for the past couple of years that explores some of my deepest pains and most vulnerable thoughts. I grew up Christian, went to Christian school from 4th grade until end of my first year of college. I devoted my life to my faith, to my relationship with Jesus. I started working for my church as a graphic designer/videographer in 8th grade and was my only job through highschool. I was there every day. I pursued vocational ministry and went to work for a church of my mentors after college until I couldn’t come to terms with my sexuality and was asked to leave due to my mental health. No smoking until 18, I didn’t drink alcohol until I was 21, my first kiss (woman) was at 22, and lost my virginity (consensually) at 23. I was like, ALL IN. 😇 Absolutely committed to Jesus ✝️

I spent my 20’s studying and researching, desperately trying to reconcile my faith and sexuality, but it wasn’t until I started to doubt, that I truly found life and the desire to live. Here and now became so much more important when I began to consider the truth, that nobody knows what happens when we die. Maybe everything I was taught, everything that I loved, simply isn’t. I’m not gonna lie—it scared me. It scared me to realize that I thought I knew (with all of my heart) but actually don’t have any control over the eternal.

I decided in that moment it was no longer worth it for me to try to fit into a box that was never meant for me in the first place. I dont need to prove to anyone that I am full of worth just simply for existing. I found hope in curiosity. I have found a personal connection to the divine by asking questions. I believe there is a God in ALL creatures. To exist in this world peacefully, for me, is to honor that. This series of work is really special to me, I hope it finds you where you need to be met. Stay curious, Love Always 🖤

Below you will find a Gallery of Mixed collages of Found Images, Self shot Photography/Video & Self made Objects